A Place to Start

A friend once told me "Roads? Where you're going you don't need roads" which is just a slightly altered line from Back to the Future. But when he said it, without any specific context I was able to interpret it in a new light. All of a sudden, everything made sense all at once. All I need is a vehicle and I would be able to make my own damn roads. Just what that vehicle would be however, I did not know at the time, and in fact the precise moment this sentence was written I still don't know.

I grew up as about as close to the cliche of middle-class as possible. Family of five, mini-vans and SUVs, dad goes to work, stay at home mother, public schools, suburbia, fighting with my siblings, drawing on the walls, visits to grandparents, camping, birthday, christmases....But this was all I knew, I grew up with general assumptions as to what life should be like when I became an adult.

Well here I am, a young adult, twenty years of age and things just seems so horribly wrong. Something about the nine to five, car payments and everything else just doesn't seem right. From observation, this is adult life as prescribed in my mind. Rather, this was adult life in my mind, there's so much more to life than fitting in with the average consensus. But it's not something that anyone teaches you, not in school, not at work, nowhere. And from what I can gather, not many people understand it. So I'm trying something new, I'm forging ahead, making my own way, figuring it out one step at a time, writing it down and not ever going to look back.

Though whether it could be a warning to others or just to serve as a reminder to myself, I feel obligated to look back on things once more. Life was a big series of ups and downs that could potentially prove to be valuable bits of knowledge. And honestly, I feel its a bit of a necessity to detail how things happened when it all began.

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